Insomnia

"Nights full of Alize..." -Tupac

I cannot sleep. Real talk. I keep waking up. It sucks a lot. What do I usually do when I can't sleep? It usually consists of watching random youtube vids, manga, reading, or thinking about poker scenarios in my head. In this case, I am thinking about poker. Today marks the start of something awesome. I finally had a decent profitable session of poker. This, by no means, will not be the LAST profitable session for the days to come. After having a talk with Bill about all the leaks/incorrect thought processes I have, I am convinced that I will see my bankroll steadily climb back up due to sheer volume. I have composed a list of things I want to accomplish before I stop playing poker [if this ever happens].

1] Win a MTT for $10k+
2] Satellite into a major LIVE tournament
3] Final table any live event [even a small MORONgo poker tournament]
4] Final table one of the myriad online poker tournaments [Sunday Million, Full Tilt $750k guarantee, etc]
5] Meet Doyle Brunson [the first real poker book I read was Super Systems]
----> I'm pretty sure I can list more things but this is all for now

It's funny how doing well after such a long drought of poker can feel. I feel like a lab rat that finally memorized the maze and got that tasteless pellet. Everybody likes to be a winner. Some do not have it in them to tolerate constant losses or things going sour time and time again. I now realize poker players in general MUST have an unlimited amount of optimism to be successful. It is not easy to convince yourself that you will be a winning player when your bankroll goes to shit. I would like to think I am optimistic.